Unfinished by Arielle Hooks

You always ask what I see in you
And I stumble to put it into words
Not because I’m unsure but I want you to understand.
You see..you’re sunshine on a cold day I’m waiting to feel you on my skin..
And I look at you like you’re my favorite dessert. You make everything better.
And you’re like my best friend. I can talk to you about anything and know you’ll tell me the truth.
And… I’m convinced I’m going to feel the same way about you until they bury me.

It’s crazy how things evolve over time and It’s crazy how things can change at the drop of a dime.
Like when I saw you for the last time except I didn't know it was the last time...
It's kind of sad how we went from being everything to nothing at all.
And even if I could go back in time, I'd probably still choose to fall for you.
And maybe I sound cliché,
I wouldn't doubt it,
But at one time you were everything I wanted, and nothing could change that
But now you are nothing I want, and everything has changed that.
And as many times as we tried to squeeze ourselves into versions of what we thought the other needed
My place was wrong and your timing off.
Yet Like Khalid, I still have your number saved and unblocked
Hoping you have the sense to call me.

You always told me that true love never fades
Which I guess is why I used to make it a habit to not tamper with the image I maintained of you,
even at the end.
Am I here because I love you or am I just used to you?
And it has been a hell of a year.
I've learned a lot about people but I was constantly reminded to be careful of whom I make memories with
As they'll make their appearance
Whenever they please and place you in a trance that makes it seem,
As if I need to venture back to you.
And that applied, well applies, specifically to you.
Because although we're "done" our story still feels unfinished.
And although you broke my trust, hurt my ego, scared my spirit;
my love for you has yet to diminish.
And I’m mad because I thought I was certain love was made for you and me

But your absence has created a peace I craved but didn’t know existed.

And I try to move forward, everyone screaming at me not to look back, but suddenly a memory sets me off track.
It’s the song that would play every time we were on the phone
or the smell of your cologne,
it’s me scrolling through Netflix and lingering over the movies we watched together wanting to laugh like you’re in arms reach only to feel the cold of my sheets.

Oh, the irony or I guess who would've known.
That one message could have spun into your existence becoming significant almost like the Sun.
I’ve convinced myself I need closure just to feel the way your name rolls off my tongue.
The way my phone autocorrects your name.
To feel a tinge on confusion because at least I’d be feeling something.
I’m undecided and yet I’m sure. Critical of every word and decision like I’m walking a tightrope over a minefield.

I only obsess over relationships that feel unfinished.

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